Randomness

Had my exit interview from my current company. My last day will be officially on 30 September 09. Haven't secured a new job yet... So you can only imagine how BADLY I want to leave here.

It's time to move on. I'll miss my beloved colleagues like Bui and Lyna and Sharon. But I won't miss anything else here.

Anyway, I'm still actively looking for a job. But Lyna is right, nowadays the jobs available are for skilled workers. Even hubby who half-heartedly looked for job, has found a new job! I'm thrilled for him. =) It pays like S$400 more, and it's a job he likes, so it's a win-win situation! He sounds really enthusiastic about what this new job can offer, so I'm really happy for him. =) Hope this time the new boss will be better.

Now that hubby's career is settled so far, outstanding issues will be a new job for me, buying a house of our own, and preparing for my year-end trip. =) Once all these done, I'm a happy girl! =p My goals are simple. Heh.

Oh yes, OTT, yesterday went KTV with Lyna and Sharon. I tell you, it was a riot! =D We had SOOOO much laughter there. Made a fool of ourselves and shocking the poor waiter, screached to Aerosmith's "I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing" (which I made a voice recording and I laughed every single time when I replayed it at least 10 times, LOL!), danced to "My Humps" by Black Eyed Peas (ok, that's me, showing Lyna my wonderfully big butt) and my poor cheese fries got squashed by Lyna's butt. Haven't had such a good laugh for the longest time! Such that I was missing Lyna already when we went home. =( Can we go again soon??!!

Oh, and another random talk: I want LG Cookie! I was so tempted to buy the LG Cookie at Singtel when I visited ION Orchard! It was S$300 without contract. I think it's probably because they are discontinuing this model. =( I like it because it's fully touch-screen and it uses a stylus, which means I can poke poke the phone with my nails! I can't use Arena, IPhone, because it's not THAT touch-sensitive and I have super fat and clumsy fingers. -_- And my phone is quite cranky these days. It shuts off by itself, smses doesn't come through (need to switch off and switch on), it's laggy as hell, and worst is hubby's number doesn't reflect his name nor picture nor his ringtone! =( So really wanted a new phone. But then thinking again, quite a waste of money since it's still working, and not as if I REALLY need a new phone now. Haiz. Quite torn between buying and not buying. Oh well, just wait for the new Sony Ericsson phone end of the month. Or for better deals.

To Go or Not to Go, That is the Question

Yup. Actually I've tendered and gave one month notice already, but because of the 'counselling' by my 2 bosses, plus the fact that I haven't found a job, I decided to take back my resignation. So I'm still stuck here. But should still be leaving end September.

Ivory asked me why I want to leave. Various reasons. She should know I long ago want to leave. But why now? Because now I really do not feel the motivation to continue working. Honestly, that's the best answer already. I'm rude to the students, I've no patience with them, I'm not who I used to be when I first started here. I don't like this change, and it just means my passion is not here anymore. My heart is not in the work, is not with the students anymore. How to continue working here? Work until my attitude pisses someone off and I get fired?

Other reasons of course is the salary, benefits, etc and plus the fact that my dad and bro keep nagging to change job, find government job, etc. *shrugs* Ah well. A change in environment is good. Because I've been here so long already; 4 years I think, and I don't think I've learnt much. It's time to move out of my comfort zone and do something new, face new challenges, meet new people. Sometimes I feel I'm taking granted of the comfort zone that I have here. Because I've known some of the people for so long, I do do my work, I work ok with the people here. So not much problems I face like office politics, etc. But being stagnant here isn't good either. I find that I don't really know much about other things. I only know about my current jobscope. I feel like I need to go and 'see the world'.

I honestly do feel bad leaving Ivory here with all the other problems with students. And I can't bear to leave her and Philyna. They mean alot to me, more than they know. But I do have to leave. I cannot take it much longer. For the past 2 or 3 months, I've been complaining DAILY to my hubby. I feel so angry and all the other negative emotions at the end of each working day. I throw tantrums at him, I nag at him, I rant to him. I think he's also sick of all these. But I can't stop myself. Keeping them bottled inside just makes me feel even worse and if no other outlets to release the tension, I just flare up at him for every little matter that he's suffering just as much as I do. I feel so bad, but I can't stop myself really.

So to go or not to go? If I don't go, I'll probably go crazy sooner or later. And I'll probably get fired for my attitude towards the students. If I go, I feel bad for deserting Ivory and Philyna. I don't know lah. Hopefully I find a job soon. It will help me make my decision...

My Hamster Just Gave Birth!

I can only say this: "OMGOMGOMFG!"

I was so stunned when hubby told me she had just given birth! Because I didn't notice anything different when I fed them in the morning before work!

Snuck in a peek on the babies, and awwww... They are just so cute and gross at the same time! Wriggling, little hairless, reddish things... LOL! I can't wait to see them grow out their fur! ^_^

Managed to count them (because they were partially hidden by the cotton wool that I had put in the cage originally), and there are 8 of them! I think it's just so interesting to see the mother hamster pick them up with her teeth back into the house. They kept dropping out of the house, because she's so fat, she inevitably will drag some babies out of the house when she climbs out of the tiny house-hole.

Well, this is the highlight of this week! =) I keep sneaking out to take a look at them whenever I'm home. Sigh.

Now I just pray hard that they'll grow up soon! And be safe... >_<

Update~

Work:

Getting busy and stressed as hell. I can't wait for end of July where I can FINALLY relax! -_- So many things to do, to handle, to take note... Sigh... I don't envy Ivory.

Life:

Hmmm, well, waiting to buy our own 'love nest'. Hoping that we can get the flat from the HDB half-yearly sale! Please pray for us! >_< When that is settled, well, it's a load off my mind. And we can start planning the renovation and hopefully be able to move in by end of the year!

Had a fight with sis. Shan't elaborate, only am sorry for slapping her, which was quite uncalled for no matter what. Especially since I don't condone violence. Sigh. But I'm still not gonna forgive her for the things she said. Mess with me, fine. Mess with hubby, sorry, I will NEVER tolerate. End of story.

His friend gave us 2 new baby hamsters! UBER cuteness lah! =D Yeah, my last hammie died. Sigh. So I told his friend, and he said he'll give us two hamsters. But then one male, one female. -_- Just worried when there are babies! I'll just go frantic with worry. -_- But they are quite tame surprisingly. The male one is such a scaredy-cat. LOL. Hum-ji one. Hahaha... Started shivering when hubby carried it. =p The female one super duper small lor! So worried I'll accidentally crush her. -_- Interestingly they don't play with the wheel. Hubby says they are still small and not used to their new home. =p Love them to bits. Still don't know what to call them though. So far came up with Kachang and Putih. LOL. Because before that was eating kachang putih, and just nice, the male one is white in colour, the female is yellowish, orangey. =p

Went to his friend's pub with 2 of his friends. Long time haven't been clubbing. LOL. Feel so old lah. Anyway was abit miffed when one of the guy that STARED at my chest when he walked past me. LIKE HELLO?! It's not as if I was wearing anything revealing as what I would wear to clubbing lah! -_- And such blatant staring?! CB lor. Hubby still can joke if I had worn another top, he would have nose-bleed. -_- What the hell...

That's all for now. Crossing my fingers that we get our flat soon! =(

Back from Bangkok

Am missing my 3 Thai girlfriends badly from King's Garden pub near Patpong... =(

Kwan, the 19-year-old waitress who is super duper cute. Her reactions is really typical of a 'xiao meimei' but not those act cute kind. The way she smiles and her dramatic gestures really is so endearing and cute! Hubby says I like her so much because her face is the 'fleshy' kind, very nice to pinch type. =p I especially adore the way she scratched her head when hubby did some of those card/coin tricks, the way she kept practising the card tricks my hubby taught her, the way she proudly 'thanked' everyone for watching her successful card trick, the way she beamed (my hubby says her smile is a 'squarish' kind of smile, very cute). She's just adorable.

Cookie, one of the girls at the pub, is sweet looking, and is good on the eyes. =) Not your typical "chio" kind, but it's those girl-next-door kind. Every night that we're there, she'd come find me, give me a hug at the waist and touch my upper arm. -_- I joked to hubby that she's taking advantage of me. LOL! She's very shy and doesn't talk much, except to me. But then she likes to ask me to play "Connect 4" with her. -_- Which I lose every single time. Sigh. Until the next night when I'm there, I refused to play with her. =x Hubby says she likes to play with me because I'm stupid. -_- She ended up being our friend's date during our last night there. Hehe... All thanks to me lah! I 'sacrificed' my body to lure her into our group and matchmake them! =x

Last but not least is Aou. How do I say, she reminds me so much of Philyna and more. =) The first few nights that we saw her, she seems very arrogant, rarely smiling and 'untouchable'. But on the last night, because we were showing Cookie a few antics (like ear-wriggling, eyebrow raised up and down etc), she asked Aou over to show us the "pupils in the middle" antic. Oh my god, that made us all laugh like mad. And from there, there's no stopping all of us. Her reactions, are all so dramatic, totally opposite from her usual persona. She's not afraid of looking so unglam, so ugly, etc. There's nothing that she won't do seriously. =p The way she threw a tantrum when her colleagues laughed at the fat bird that she folded for me, the way she glared and sulked, the way she just roared in laughter whenever she failed to do some of the tricks that we showed them (or rather, hubby, who showed them some card and coin tricks), the way she went to disturb our friend, her facial expressions, really drama-mama. =)

There's so much I want to say about Aou, so much I want to put in words what I love about her, so much I want to describe the time spent with her and the other girls. But no words can describe this experience, no words can explain how much fun we've all had. I guess I can only keep Aou in my heart, remembering her and our encounter. And of course the other girls. =)

I miss them oh so much. =( Pity that we didn't meet Aou earlier. We would have had so much more fun.

I'll blog more about my Bangkok trip next time. Waiting for hubby's photos. Now I'll just go and cry. =(

Busy Day...

Had so many things to do today! Not enough sleep... -_- Wanted to sleep more since it's (a) a Saturday! No work! and (b) didn't sleep enough the past few nights. (Last night had a durian supper plus midnight show at Causeway Point. Night at the Museum 2!) But well, had a busy day lined up, and we needed to go to trim our hair at the salon at 12nn.

So off we went, trimmed our hair and headed off to his friend's bike shop. Had our lunch near there, and went to the Mustafa Warehouse sale. Bought a camcorder as it was pretty cheap! Only S$355! Includes a 4GB SD card, sling casing and extra battery! Actually the free gifts are supposed to be just a small casing (pouch) and a SD card (no extra battery). But the guy probably mistook the Starter Kit for the casing, so he gave us the Starter Kit instead! =D So yeah, very good deal! ^_^ It'll be my baby! Though when will I finally get my own digicam? -_-

Then it looked like it was going to rain soon, so we headed off to Golden Mile Complex to change our currency to Thai Baht and rushed off to his sister's place as we're supposed to have dinner there. =) But they were not back home yet, so we went to Punggol Plaza to rot. =p

Finally we went over to his sister's place where we had steamboat dinner with his sis and bro-in-law and cousins. Very nice gathering, lots of gossips. LOL! =p I do enjoy such gatherings, though I don't really talk much. Hahaha... =x Maybe just not used to it I suppose! Watched TV, played Ban Luck, and went off to meet William for a short meeting before we meet again to go to Bangkok!

Oh no, speaking of which, I still haven't pack my luggage! Wahahahaha... Guess will have to wait till tomorrow... =x

Bangkok, here I come! =D

One More Week...

... and I'm off to Bangkok! ^_^

But can't help worrying about work. Sigh... This week gonna be really busy trying to ensure that everything is ok for when I go on leave! Honestly I'd hate it if something goes wrong when I'm not here, despite what others may think. I'd just feel real bad. =(

But well, I still can't help feeling excited about this trip and I hope we'll really enjoy ourselves there rather than fight and argue! Must learn to control my temper! Sigh...

Nothing much these few weeks. Just busy and stressed at work I suppose. Alot of things are beyond my control, and I don't like that. =( Not when I do my best and I can't get the results I want. It's so frustrating.

I probably need a new job. Sigh...

This holiday came just at the right timing. I just can't wait to relax and not have to answer phonecalls or emails. One whole week all to myself and hubby. =) Just pampering ourselves. *bliss*

I love my hubby! Even though he SO annoys me at times! Grrrr... Yeah, all the 'healthy' talk, 'no money', etc just irritates me. I'm just not someone anyone can nag! I've had enough of that at home!

And speaking of home, I just can't wait to get our own flat and move out asap. Can't live with her anymore. At least when I move out, I'm not reliant on her for anything, so I don't have to put up with her. I'll only miss my daddy and siblings. I'll always be daddy's little girl. =( Only wish our relationship was as tight as it was when I was a lil kid. Sigh. So many things to say to daddy, just don't know how to. We're just not the sort to be open with our feelings. Except anger. LOL.