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You are pure, moral, and adaptable. You tend to blend into your surroundings. Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life... And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

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What Kind of Guy Will You Fall For?
	You would fall for the geek. If you're looking for love, consider spending a little more time studying up in the library. To you, there's nothing more attractive than intelligence, shyness, and kindness; your future love may have four eyes and zero social skills, but he'll make up for it in brains and heart.
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Which Winnie the Pooh Character Are You?
	You are Piglet. You are timid, quiet, and like to stay in others' shadows. Though your shyness can irritate some, you are courageous when it counts and are always loyal to your friends.
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Temperament = Flexible
Nothing seems to bother you - you sail through life crisis free. It's not that your life doesn't have its ups and downs, it's just that you handle everything without unnecessary drama and antics. You approach each day fresh, not worrying about yesterday or tomorrow. You are confident that you can handle anything that comes your way and experience has shown that you are absolutely right about this.

Interests = Simple
You are continually pursuing a simpler and less complicated life - you don't allow yourself to fall victim to all of the "should do's" that society continually bombards you with. You are thoughtful about your life choices and think in terms of yourself, others and the world in which we live. You have a great sense that we are part of something much bigger and we must be good to others, if we want others and the world to be good to us.

Amusement = Adventurous
It's a good thing that you are filled with energy and ambitions (that others sometimes find exhausting) because you're continually looking for a new adventure and exciting experience. You struggle with a continual feeling of restlessness which constantly pushes you to the next level of excitement. Once you have accomplished one thing, you are eager to accomplish something more exciting, riskier and distinguishable.

Passion = Physical
You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.

That's about it I think... =p Sorry for the lack of updates. Office can't blog, and due to a fall-out with mum 2 weeks ago or thereabouts, my access to internet is quite limited, so no updates lor. Anyway am back home, so yah.

Time flies honestly. -_- Soon it'll be Christmas! OMG... I feel so ancient lor... *faints* And it's a second Christmas with him. =p Hehehe... I'm just amazed we've come this far. Since I have really quite short attention span and my previous longest relationship was like 9 months? Hahaha... And before that it was like, 3 months? Not bad lah, until now still so into him... Everyday machiam still honeymoon stage. =x At least everytime he smses my heart will still skip a beat. Or I'll have a silly grin on my face. Not like with JQ, after 6 months already sian half liao. Haha. =p

I'm so lemming for a PSP Slim leh! And pretty handmade necklaces! =p Sigh. But think my PSP will have to wait till January lah. Or maybe never. -_- What to do? I can't anyhow spend like before lor. Not that I'm complaining lah. =p Good lah, at least got aim, direction in life mah. Hahaha...

Hmmm, nothing much liao lah. Nothing else to update. So far so good also lah, not much quarrels with him recently. =p Nothing else interesting in my life liao anyway, since my life revolves around him. Hahaha... Yup, he's the only man in my life! Ok, aside my dad and bro lah. But otherwise I only have eyes for him. Bleah.

Speaking of time flies, soon it'll be 2008. Hmmm, have to start making New Year resolutions... But not as if I'll follow also. =x Whatever it is, I just hope for a smooth year, and hopefully we can get a flat so can move in together! Think when that time comes, I'll be even harder to get, because will be too broke and nua to come out and play liao. =x But I wonder what will happen when we move in together. Lol. =p

Ok, gotta log off liao. =)

Stupid Inconsiderate Bitch...

Just got home like one hour ago. Until now I haven't bathed, all because of a stupid girl with no manners.

F**k lor. She blardy hell vomitted in the toilet bowl, didn't flush properly, didn't clean up the residue left on the toilet seat and the area between the seat and cover. WTF~! Do you know how f**king gross it is?! And how blardy stinky it is?! HOW THE F**K AM I SUPPOSED TO SHOWER?! And worse still, my laptop is just in front of the toilet lah! How am I supposed to surf my net in comfort?!

End up I have to close the door and spray my perfume outside. -_- And I can't f**king shower, because the back toilet is so cramped itself, and now with the washing machine there, I can't shower there anymore.

So poor me, sweaty and dirty from an all night biking outing, can't f**king shower because of her inconsideration! Do you know how annoying that is?! I was out the whole night in the middle of the rain (ok, drizzle), so I was wet (of course now dry le), and with all the dirt, smoke, etc from riding on the road, I feel so damn dirty lah!

Bitch. No blardy manners. I don't give a damn whether you're sick and dying or drunk. You blardy well clean up after your own mess at other people's house. This is NOT your house toilet, nor the public toilet, nor your own house toilet. Don't you have any manners, discipline? F**k lor, if I do puke in the office toilet lah, and I make a mess, I'll still clean up lor. Smell wise, I can't do much, but at least don't leave unsightly stains lah! Somemore now you're at other people's house lor!

I don't care if others reading this think I'm being too harsh or too worked up. Try being in my shoes and then tell it in my face then I'm unreasonable to be like this. I'll give you a slap across the face.

I'm so going to complain and scold my brother in front of her. Whether she's in the room or in the toilet. I don't give a damn if she hears it and feels upset. I don't give a damn if my brother gets upset and has a fight or argument with me. Partly because SHE is in the wrong, not me. You bring her home to sleep with you, YOU be responsible for her actions. Hell, even my hubby will clean the toilet bowl when he sees shit stains left by one of us. And she can't blardy clean up after herself?!

And partly because MY BRO didn't give a damn about my feelings and hubby's when he made snide/sarcastic remarks about him. HE also made my life miserable last time when hubby was over at my place with all his insensitive remarks. So why the f**k should I care about HIS feelings?! No blardy way.

That's why I believe in karma. What goes around, comes around. You snub my hubby before, now I snub your girl. All's fair. I don't give a shit if my bro picks a fight with me and gives me hell. I'm no blardy pushover and he got it coming. I didn't settle my scores with him then, so I shall settle them now.

I'm still annoyed that I can't shower. I'll wait till mum comes out and if she dares to accuse me of that dirty deed, I'm so gonna scream at her and yell injustice and curse and swear at the girl in my bro's room. F**k lor, no matter how messy, how dirty, how unhygenic I may be, I at least have the decency to not affect other people's lives with my actions.

I still have another hour to go before mum wakes up. -_- Now it's 5.30am. Luckily I don't have work tomorrow, or so help me God, I'll be raising hell at home.

Random Post...

Actually this is a long overdue post. Wanted to blog about the other time I went back to his hometown in his bro-in-law's car.

Heh, as usual, at tbe Customs, the officer will look at me and the passport. Then he look to and fro for some time before asking who is this (pointing to the passport photo). -_- Ello, only got 2 girls in the car lor. So difficult to recognize meh?

Anyhow, I dunno what the f*** I was thinking. I just grinned broadly and give a V sign. -_- I think the officer also stunned. Ah lao just smacked my head and groaned in exasperation. Lol. =x Yah, kind of stupid I know. I just don't know what's going on in my head to make me have such an action. Duh.

* WARNING: COARSE LANGUAGE USED BELOW. Rated: M18 *

Oh yah, today a STUPID CHEENA SISSY GUY pissed me off. KNN, the f**king asshole is in the blardy wrong, and yet thinks so lowly about our government's rules and regulations and that by his mere 'explanations', he can get away unscathed. How naive and idiotic lah! Never think of the blardy consequences lor!

And CCB, that motherf**ker actually RAISED HIS PCB VOICE AT ME! NOBODY F**KING RAISES THEIR VOICES AT ME OK! Even Elvis also kena my scolding when he raised his voice at me. Don't say Elvis lah, even my ah lao is not spared when on rare occassions he also raises his voice at me.

Anyway, I'm just so f**king pissed with that lor! Stupid sissy boy, I hope you blardy rot on Earth and in Hell. I pray for the day I see your sickening face in the papers saying you're to be jailed or deported or killed. So that I can have a good laugh and will certainly make my day! TMD. If I am the unprofessional kind of person, you can be certain I'll make sure you regret RAISING YOUR BLARDY VOICE AT ME AND BEING SO INSOLENT. Mark my words.

I'm generally not an evil and so full of hatred person. -_- I'm generally nice to everyone. and those who are especially nicer to me, I'll be even nicer. =) But those who f**king are so sickeningly rude and pisses me off, there will be hell to pay. Step on my tail, and I'll NEVER let you off.

The one thing I detest most, is people SHOUTING or even RAISING THEIR VOICES AT ME. NOBODY DOES THAT AND GETS AWAY FROM IT!

So annoyed lah, that I can't do anything to him. CCB. Dulanz. F**king Cheena sissy boy. Hope you kena raped by Bangalas tonight.

If You Could Turn Back Time...

... would you want to change anything?

As a true Libra, I see things from different viewpoints. =p

If I really want to change, perhaps another family. Sad but true. Reason being if I were born in a different family, perhaps I'll not be the way I am now. I think your family really do play a part in shaping the way you are now. I see myself following my mum's footsteps, but all the bad points. -_- I don't like it. If I were say in a family like my cousins', perhaps, just perhaps, I'll be more ambitious, smarter at work, better in relationships, etc.

If I really want to change, perhaps to be more religious. Never wavering. I do believe there's a God, but many a times, I feel like He isn't watching over me as I'd like Him to. When I was at my most depressive moments, I can't feel Him. I lost the faith along the rocky path. But as my best friend would say, He just has better plans for me, but He's always there. Nah, I'm not preaching. I hate people who preach despite their better intentions. I'm not known for acknowledging people who try and preach me.

Still got others, but I think I'll just stop here. =p

But then again, if I can change things, what I have now will change too. Nothing is constant. And do I want to change things that I have now? Not very likely. Family relationship is better now than before. I have a loving husband who I have a love-hate relationship with. =p (Yah, sometimes he annoys the hell out of me and we fight like, quite constantly as poor Bui would know since she has to listen to me whine and complain and rant about him. Sorry! =x But still, he's still there for me. I'm just a difficult person to be with and so far only he can tahan me.) I enjoy what I'm doing now, really, though a better paycheck would be fabulous. =p I have friends whom I know I can keep for life.

If I really do change the past, I don't think I'll still find this job. I don't think I'll meet these kind of colleagues, friends and acquaintances. I don't think I'll meet those guys from my past. I don't think I'll meet him. I don't think I'll have the current life that I have. My life may be better, maybe worse. You'll never know.

It just makes me think that, one shouldn't focus on the past, thinking about the many 'if onlys', 'what ifs', 'what could haves', etc. Should might as well look forward and see how you can shape your future. What for wishing to turn back time and change things? It's not as if there's a guarantee that your life would be better now. It could just easily become worser.

I'm just so in a philosophical mood. -_- *yawns* I think I think too much sometimes. Lol.

I Wanna Complain...

Sorry Tam, wanna blog something else more interesting, but I wanna complain! Gonna be draggy. -_- As usual lah, about HIM!

His secondary school classmate invited him to her wedding. Then he never ask me or what, just say he going, then if I follow him what am I gonna do there. WTF. Means he not bringing me lah! -_-

Angry because he never ask me and make his own decision. Also because it makes me feel like he doesn't want to bring me go because too fat and ugly lor. So shameful. *SULKS* Then he gimme crap reasons like she invited him only, he just wanna save money (because if I go, means he gotta fork out more for angpao mah), and doesn't want to inconvenience her by asking if I can go or not.

What the hell lor. To me these are crap reasons. Maybe I'm being unreasonable. Perhaps. But it just annoys the hell out of me. It doesn't help that he is also as bad-tempered as me. So two stubborn mules together, both go nowhere.

But no meh, if wedding dinner of course husband and wife go together what. Even if invitation card never write also expected one mah. So difficult to ask one meh? And ang pao money I cannot fork out half meh? What c**k lor. Maybe she don't know he ROM liao mah, so never ask him and his wife what. Duh.

Anyhow, am just frustrated. *Trying to think happy thoughts*

KL Trip...

Went ahead with the KL trip! =D So glad we did. Anyhow, we had to go, because his friend had already booked a hotel for us and coach tickets back to Singapore.

Enjoyed myself there, though please remind me NEVER to wear high heels there. Walked like mad lah. I didn't wear my sneakers up, because we wanted to buy new matching sneakers there. And I was going to wear my high boots there to the wedding dinner anyway. And it didn't help that stupid 'auntie visit' came just the day before lor. So tired from the long coach ride up, having blardy cramps and walking with my heavy bag in the stupid heels, made me REALLY grumpy.

And so of course we argued when we reached KLCC. He was grumpy too, because probably tired from the coach ride too, and worried about me, because I was stuck in the toilet for so long. So he was pulling a long face when I finally surfaced from the toilet. Which of course irritated me. But well, as usual lah, we don't argue for long. =p And I'm happy to report that no other arguments during the whole trip, so yeah! (Hey, it's an achievement lor. =p Bui will know why. Lol.)

Anyhow, KL definitely is not a place for me. Too many good food! Went out with his brother's family, and ate SO much! But enjoyed spending time with them. =) Had a good time at the dinner too, with his friends, though I look pretty retarded there, because everyone spoke Cantonese, and my Cantonese is pretty limited. -_- I only understood bits and pieces lor. Worse is that he also started talking to me in Cantonese. -_-

But I'm so proud of myself! *smirks* For once I tried to be unselfish and reasonable and understanding lor. Hahahahaha... Let him have fun going for a foot massage with his friends for slightly less than an hour, instead of making him come back to the hotel with me to countdown for my birthday lor. And I went back and packed our bags for him. It was a total mess when we left for the dinner, because we ended up changing clothes for the dinner. (Brought our ROM suits, because he wanted to wear that, so might as well follow him lor. But ended up last minute changing back to NORMAL clothes. =p And you know I'm a messy person. =x)

So yah, so poor me was alone in the hotel room on my birthday. He came back right after the massage lah. =p Thought he may wanted to go out for supper or something with his friend, since he hasn't met up with him for ages. I had smsed him to say it's ok, I'll be fine on my own. =p

Anyhow, yah, *beams* At least he appreciates all that! Heee... Nothing much on my birthday though, no surprises, what not. *sighs* But well, he's like that lah. What to do. -_- Blockhead. But still a loveable one. =) This trip has been real successful I must say. Hopefully the next one will be just as fun and happy! =) But don't know when lah. Should be next year bah. =(

Anyway, thanks all for the birthday wishes. Really touched. =) *muacks* Love ya all!

Funeral...

Sometimes I hate myself for being so petty. Like I told Bui on Monday, when his godma had passed away, I hated myself for not accompanying him on Sunday when he went to visit her. Granted, I didn't know she was so sick. I thought he was only going to drop by and see her. I had sulked because he was about to leave the house without me, without telling me where he was going. So when I had thrown tantrum before he stepped out, he just said he was going to his godma, and only when I sulked and asked why he didn't ask me, did he ask. By then I was already fuming because it's like, HELLO, this type of thing don't need to ask lor. You tell me I'll sure go with you one. But then when he asked I refused to go and sulked in the room. Only when he returned, did he explain that he was just worried that I'll be uncomfortable or scared being there since she was so sick.

And then Monday morning, she passed away.

So yeah, I still felt much regret for not going, so throwing tantrums. *sighs* I just feel so bad. Not to mention feeling guilty for daring to even THINK how my KL trip and birthday is ruined because he said most probably we're not going to KL anymore to attend the wedding. -_- Bad right? Haiz.

Anyhow, I just hope he won't be feeling so sad. Because he sort of thinks he was a jinx, because she died the next day after seeing him. But it was otherwise. Apparently, she had deteriorated on Wednesday or something, and then she just couldn't fall asleep. Only after seeing him, did she sleep and then she never woke up. =( She even bought him a gold ring after his mum showed her our ROM photos, which her kids passed to him yesterday.

Sighs. I just wish I don't have to attend anymore funerals. (I went back with him to accompany him.) Depressing. And I hate how he doesn't tell me how he feels, what he's thinking.

But this whole issue has taught me something. That you don't know when you'll die. It's best to have no regrets. At least, more or less, his godma shouldn't have much regrets. Seeing how she had waited to see him before she left. She had said her goodbyes to him. And I really should learn to control my stubborness and temper. -_-

Only he can tahan me and lets me off for all my tantrums, stubborness and such. I think only he can really love me despite all my faults.