Sad... =(

Feeling really sad, because while me and hubby were off at his hometown, my 2 hammies apparently got into a fight... My Ben Dan went to bite a chunk off his Huai Dan's head... *cries* Everytime I see his bald patch I cry... =( Feel so upset and hurting, because it must have hurt alot and poor Huai Dan must have been tormented... I know my Ben Dan has been bullying his Huai Dan these few weeks, but I thought it was nothing, so didn't separate them... Sigh...

So angry with naughty Ben Dan... Shall rename him as Wang Ba Dan liao... Hubby so angry with my Ben Dan that he threaten to feed him to the stray cats downstairs... *cries* Now I just wanna go home and sayang poor Huai Dan and make him as comfortable as possible... =(

I don't dare to wash poor Huai Dan, because of his wound... So I ended up washing the cage while hubby washed him... Saw spots of blood and I just cried lah... Cried myself to sleep also... Poor lil fella... =( Then hubby went to apply yellow lotion on his wound... -_- And now my Ben Dan is stuck in the Tupperware, because didn't have time to buy new cage for him...

I WANNA CRY AGAIN LAH!!!!! *BAWLS*

I HATE YOU.

I actually wrote a long entry, but I decided I'll just post it in my personal blog instead.

But I still want to rant here. And yell to the whole world that "I FUCKING HATE YOU V".

You know who you are. And I shan't comment further here.

I can only say just hearing your voice makes me wanna hurl.

And yeah, you're not the only one facing 'FAMILY ISSUES'. I am also facing FUCKING family issues. So what's the big fuck about yours?!

Yuppers. I'm FUCKING PISSED. And whoever dares tell me not to use such language, you can FUCK OFF already, because this is my FUCKING blog, and I can FUCKING write what I want.

Girls...

Maybe because I'm not that kind of girl, but I don't understand why some girls can be so cheap go message other guys to add them in Facebook. Especially when the profile clearly states he's MARRIED. Which means, HANDS OFF MY PROPERTY WOMAN! Grrr... I do trust my hubby won't do anything YET. But whether he'll still be as sure when the girl keeps pestering or messaging him, etc, that's another matter.

I simply detest sluts like these type of girls. Call me possessive, I don't care.

I just don't like other girls tempting my hubby. Period. Go get your own. Cheap bitch.

PMS Sucks...

I hate PMS-ing and treating him like shit. I know I shouldn't, but when I'm PMS-ing a few days before the stupid thing, I get really irrational, irritable, insecure (extreme), etc. I don't mean to give myself excuses for treating him so badly, but well, I'm just so glad he's so tolerant, despite getting fed up with me. And I can't help but cry when he says he will not have any regrets marrying me. =(

I just hope he'll still be like this. That we can go back to our dating days. When I wasn't so insecure, when I wasn't so annoying. Sometimes I really hate the person I've become. I need my confidence back. =|

Regrets...

Not me, just my ex, who contacted me during the weekend and yeah, said how sorry he was, blah blah blah.

Fool me once, I'm naive; fool me twice, I'm stupid.

How appropriate this song is...

One Republic Ft. Timbaland - Apologize

I'm holding on your rope,

Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

Sian Week...

This week has been horrendous. What with the Career Fair, the textbook collection, etc. I can't wait to claim my compensated leave and have some ME time. I want to go shopping!

So many movies I wanna watch also! Where will I find the time and money to watch ALL of them?!

1) The Leap Years

2) P.S I Love You

3) Kungfu Dunk

4) Death Note: L Change The World

5) Away From Her

6) Water Horse

7) Sky of Love

Should be getting my new phone at the I.T. Fair instead! Because worry that later got roadshow there and it's cheaper. Wah, I'd feel blardy pissed if I get it now and find that if I had bought it at the roadshow I would have saved more money! -_-

So anyway yeah, still using the cuckoo phone. =p

Yipee~!

Heehee, so excited! I'm FINALLY going to get a new handphone! =x Courtesy of my hubby! ^_^ Not cheap also lor! Sigh... But I REALLY REALLY like that phone, despite the many problems posted by users in those forums. =( My phone is more expensive that his by almost 300 bucks! Yah, he's getting a new phone too, because his China phone is really the pits! Interesting and quite alike SE W960i, but lots of firmware problems I think!

Before anyone thinks we've struck lottery, it's not that ok. Just that he finally got his insurance compensation, so we have some spare money to pamper ourselves for once! He's considered really thrifty liao, because before the money came in, he had so many things he wanted to get, like new phone, laptop, digital camera. But now he says he only getting the phones for us, the rest save up. -_- Think if I were him, I couldn't care less and start buying all the stuff I've always wanted but don't have the finances to get. =x That's why I told him the money don't put in my account. I'll just spend them. =x

Anyway I can hardly wait lah! ! But can only wait until Sunday then can get! Hopefully can get it on the spot! -_- Gosh, I need to start shopping for accessories for my new phone, like pouch, screen protector, etc. Hahaha. =p My current phone is like so 'koyak' liao, bought in 2006! First phone I bought with my own pay. Lol. So I don't bear to trade-in when I'm buying the new phone. =p May have saved him 100 bucks, but I don't care, it has so many memories lah! Not to mention it's so hardy, with me being so careless, throwing it into my bag, having it fall out of my jacket onto the road and it falling apart, etc, it's still in working condition! =p Really like my phone, but time for a change!

Another thing is I can't wait for this week to be over. Including Saturday! I'm just SOOO tired. I really want to go for a holiday. =( As in a REAL holiday, not just going to KL or his hometown for like wedding, or etc.

I want to be positive, and keep smiling but it's so trying...