Pissed Off...

Now my mum says he'll go and do something to my hubby's bike, ask me not to park there anymore. F*** lor. If he dares, I'll call the police. I don't give a damn if he has to go to jail or what. I did what I can, I smsed him in the afternoon to apologize for hitting so hard and made my stand clear. So if he dares to provoke me, I'll definitely will not give face just because he's my brother. Simply because my hubby did nothing to provoke him or what. So if he's gonna take it out on my hubby, he's asking for it. Seriously.

Actually I'm torn between beating the crap out of him and calling the police. See if mum want to see him in jail or in the hospital. Her call.

I mean business. I do as I say.

Sad...

Well, I finally understand why people say that when your parents hit you, they feel the pain in the heart, not the flesh.

Today I slapped my brother real hard on his face. In front of his girlfriend nonetheless. I got nagged by hubby for that, because he said guys have their ego; no matter what, slapping guys in front of other people is a no-no.

Hey, I feel bad enough as it is, slapping him. Hearing this makes me feel so much worse. That I can't stop crying for a whole 10 mins when that scene keeps replaying itself in my head.

And why did I do that in the first place?

I had an sms from my sis yesterday, that our bro was being damn mean and horrible. Then she called me later at night before I went home that he was being mean to his girlfriend again. I won't go into details, but to summarize, he shouted at her, chased her out, dumped her stuff on the floor, threw her stuff downstairs, shoved my sis when she tried to help the girl keep back her stuff. You get my drift.

How can I just ignore when I know about all these? People who know me should know I have been treated badly in previous relationships. Though not as bad as this. So I feel so much hurt for her. Knowing that she like how I was before, can't simply just walk away.

This morning I woke up, they were about to go out. I didn't scold him yet, since everything seems ok. They went out, and I heard him shouting at her again and she trying to explain. It pains me so much ok. To hear a girl having to grovel like that with no dignity. And she's like a meek little mouse who doesn't dare to speak up and all.

So I stormed out and glared at him, asking what the f***'s going on. I confronted him about how I knew about what happened yesterday and he just scolded the girl, "See what you've done!" And I feel so pissed off. I just scolded him and threatened to whack his sorry ass, and he dared to give me that kind of arrogant look, taunting me, provoking me to do as I said. I tell you, his face is the kind you see on those hooligans' face when they want to fight.

I told him that I won't tolerate such nonsense from him, nor allow him to treat the girl like this. He can retort to ask her to leave and he did not force her to stay. What rubbish! I can understand that she doesn't bear to leave. And I cannot stand him mentally abusing her like this.

I know he won't dare to retaliate nor fight me. But I was too pissed off beyond words, frustrated that he doesn't get my point. So I just slapped him across the face and he started tearing. So did I. I feel so bad slapping him like this.

Sigh, don't know lah. I know what I did may make him treat her worser. It may not make a difference. But I just needed to let him know my stand and that I mean business. I really cannot tolerate knowing that another girl is being bullied like that and I do nothing. If my sis ever finds a boyfriend like my bro, I certainly won't just give a slap. I'll give him a good thrashing.

Thank God my hubby is so much a better man. -_-

A Song for My Hubby~

Heard this song the other way, and I just so feel it...

Flaws And All by Beyonce

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you
I'm a puzzle yes in deed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day.

[Chorus]
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you [3x]

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that
I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
and that's exactly what I need.

[Chorus]
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
and that's why I love you [3x]

[Repeat Chorus]

Random Post...

• My file is missing! WHERE IS IT?! WHO TOOK IT?! Or maybe I misplaced it? Hmmm...
• I need to clean up my room. I can't find a place to sleep at night. =x It needs a major overhaul I tell you! I'm so NOT looking forward to Project Clean-up.
• I want more money! So many things I wanna buy. New phone for myself and him, new PC for him, new hair colour.
  
• I want a long holiday! Sian of work. I need to rejuvenate myself.
  
• I hate menses. It gives me cramps and tempers. No wonder the whole of last week I'm so easily irritable. Not to mention me cursing and swearing at little things. -_-
• Guys are superficial. Most guys. Always judge by looks. Just because my picture, it has generated lots of guys messages and comments. About how sweet, how pretty, and other flirting lines. Lame.
  
• I feel so sian sometimes that I just wanna go away to some remote place with just my iPod, PSP, story books. It's like, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE ALREADY!
• I'm itchy to bash somebody up. Just waiting for the opportunity, for some stupid idiot who comes and antagonize me or my ah lao.
• I hate most guys. They piss me off. Especially motorists (drivers and riders alike) who are KNN CCBs. Never signal when cutting into other lanes, tailgating, insinuating my ah lao being one of those bad riders, show-off their powerful bikes, etc.
• I'm just in an extremely foul mood today. And I foresee for the rest of the week. So beware. I bite.
  

A Brand New Year...

And I foresee my favourite colour for this year is... RED~! =p

Bought new red Elmo soft toy cum handphone accessory (but too big, so hang on my make-up pouch instead), new PSP slim in red, new make-up pouch in red, red lighter... Maybe gonna dye red colour too! =x

Speaking of hair, I went to cut a new hairstyle! I've got a short fringe! =p Long time no short fringe already, so not used to it. So coincidentally, Bui also cut her fringe short! =D Not used to this hair, apparently the back of my hair needs to be like, scrunched abit, to create this out-of-bed, tousled look. Only he knows how, and he styled it for me before I thought it was too, not me, so I smoothed it back down. Hahaha. =x He's just good at styling lah. =)

He also cut his hair. Interesting! I like... =D Short in front and sides, and a long tail at the back. Lol. I think daddy's gonna flip when he sees his new hairstyle. =x He's now in Taiwan I think. Should I email him my hubby's photo of his new hairstyle? I think he'll get insomnia instantly. *chuckles*

Happy that I got the PSP! =D It's well-worth the money, seeing how it's being fully utilized. When I'm at work, he's playing with it. When I'm at his place, I play with it. When I'm home, usually my sis's hooked on it. Occasionally, my bro plays with it. ^_^ And bro helped me download more games into my PSP. Now got Crazy Taxi! I can't wait to play that lor! Yesterday he downloaded liao, he was stuck in his room with my PSP. Then my sis went to take from him to play until I went to his place. And then I was busy playing his computer to bother with my PSP and now it's with him. -_-

Oh well, nothing much liao! Going to Malaysia again to dye my hair. Broke lah, can't cut and dye in Singapore. =p

Time really flies, soon another Chinese New Year. Make me remember spending last year's Chinese New Year with him and his family. =)

Suddenly very nostalgic...

Update...

I'm so happy!

Bought my first ever tech gadget... PSP Slim! In HAWT HAWT RED! I LOVE IT!

Received my bonus mah, not much, but well, better than nothing. I know, some people may say money not earned easily, crazy to splurge like this. But well, I just wanted to pamper myself for once. Since when you see me buy like, really good stuff for myself? Ok, other than the fact of my recent necklace addiction. =p This is my first ever expensive toy I've ever bought for myself ok! So the feeling is different from getting it for free or someone buying it for me. =p Besides, I've already thought for very long before buying it ok!

Anyhow, was so excited upon getting it that I can't help but grin like mad for the next few days and proudly parading it around and playing with it. To hell to those who think I'm being show-off or 'hao lian'. I'm just like a kid who is excited about her new toy mah. What's wrong? =x I need new games though. Anyone wanna give me games for my PSP? =p I'm currently addicted to Diner Dash... Hohoho... =x

Oh, and my ah lao say my expression and stance when I play the racing car game on my PSP is damn interesting. He knows when I'm turning or going straight. Apparently, I hold the PSP the way people hold and maneuver the steering wheel. -_- LOL.

Speaking of driving. Another Singapore Customs booboo from yours truly. =p Remember the first incident where I made the peace sign when the Customs officer asked who's the owner of the passport and it's me? =x This time, was on his bike, and when we come back to Singapore, the Customs will check the boxes of the bikes right? His bike no box, only under the seat there's a compartment where we usually put our raincoats. We lazy to get off, and when the Customs officer asked "Got anything?" I replied, "No box." My ah lao laughed like mad lor, and he never failed to recount this incident to his other friends. -_- Funny meh? True mah... No box = nothing what. Then ah lao say the officer can also see that there's no box. -_-

Oh well, kind of bimbotic behaviour. Lol. =x

Ok lah, nothing much liao... Update another time!!